You are always the master of you. Think of your life as a novel - an amazing kick-ass novel that you can't wait to read. You are the heroine of your story, and by God, you are a survivor of all that life has thrown at you. Continue your story right here, right now.....what wonderfulness will you heap on your heroine? What behaviors will she have that will allow her to supersede the events of her life so far? How will she take action to nurture what matters?
DO THAT - Do that right now. Create your reality as you wish it to be. The first step is always self love. When you love yourself you forgive yourself. . . from everything you've done, thought or misinterpreted in the past because the past is not your future. It's not even your present. Leave it behind and create something new that suits you RIGHT NOW. Keep Creating.