I know where I'm going. I am on my highest path and trust that I will always continue to be guided. The timing is not in my control, so I let that need go. I do not mistake rest and recuperation as a set back or a block. I trust I will know when I need to do things differently and will have the courage and clarity to do them. I am grateful for all that my life has been.....all the good, the beautiful, the dark and the pain, the chaos and the flat spots. Life is good, even when it feels bad. Without all of it, I would never stand here whole and alive and filled with such amazing gratitude for all that is. Loving myself and my life Deeply, Madly and Completely.
I think there is a misconception that positive energy guarantees positive outcome.
But sometimes shit happens. To All of Us. It’s unpleasant, it’s stinky and it’s not fun. But when you fully love yourself (you know the mantra here - Deeply, Madly, Completely) you will process it through your being - it will not makes its home in you.
You will see it for what it is - a shitty situation (pun intended) and do whatever it takes to let it go. That us what you wish for your most cherished best friend, isn’t it? And that is who you are - Your Best Friend. Love yourself enough to let go of what doesn’t serve you, of what doesn’t hold you up, of what doesn’t value you. Love yourself Deeply, Madly and Completely.
BRING YOUR SOUL HOME
Once I decided to embrace the glorious mess that I am, I began to see myself in a new way. No longer a mess, but a woman filled with so much love and compassion. So much SOUL. So much to give - my light keeps getting brighter and brighter. I am home, here in my soul. HOME
You know those moments when you are transported to excitement, to joy, to the utmost happiness? You can have that more often than you think you can.
No skills required, no money needed, no extra time necessary.
CHOOSE to be excited. No matter where you are, you can always remember a time when the joy was bursting all around you. No matter where you are, breathe that in....remember it in your body, feel it.
Let it settle into your heart and and into your soul. Get excited....if for only a moment, it will transport you to living your Truth and what you signed up for on this journey called life. YOU, that YOU will excite your SOUL. Do THAT!
You are always given answers to your questions...ALWAYS.
Have you been listening? Or are you staying planted in your head - talking yourself out of the Truth that you already know? As an intuitive I am flooded with messages every day, sometimes even I have a hard time sorting them out. Knowing what to do with the messages is a skill that takes a LOT of practice for most of us, but it's available to everyone - any age - any where - any time. As a matter of fact, the youngest among us often have the least resistance to knowing what we know. You did too, many years ago.
If you are struggling with finding your answers . . . the answers that come from within - from your higher power, from your intuition, from the Cosmos, from God, then it's time to clear the slate and get ready to listen - get ready to trust, and (big gulp here) get ready to ACT.
I’m am always amazed at how often I can think something, and hear something, and wholeheartedly agree with something, and then one day it’s like I’m hearing it for the first time - Wham Bam - Holy Self Revelation.
Major internal shifts going on for me this week. All good, and about damn time too. Spirit WAS listening to my little journal rant that started an emotional avalanche, and while I'm running as fast as I can, I’m barely keeping ahead of the flow.
My self love work is apparently releasing some nasty, internal, shitty beliefs that have accumulated over the years. And I don’t think I‘m done. It’s exhausting, it’s confusing, it’s dark, but the light on the other side is calling me forward. It is good.
You know what you need to do. You (mostly) know how to do it, but you don’t want to do it and you are dragging your feet and having a bit of temper tantrum. Waah waah, waah. So you call your BFFs to bitch and vent. Because you can, because they love you, but in the end they all tell you to do the same thing that you’ve been trying to convince them you can’t do.
“Get up, put your big girl panties on and just Do It!”
Some days just roll this way…get over it.
My new Wisdom of the Oracle deck came today. I gleefully tore into the box; painstakingly separated each card from the other; performed my new deck ritual and let our energies meld. My first energetic impression is that this deck is decidedly different from all of my other ones.
I can’t really tell you how I choose each card, because there doesn’t seem to be a proscribed way. I just pick, face down, what card calls to me. I chose my 3. As I was reading the meanings of my first card, tears began streaming down my face. Tears of gratitude, tears of release and tears to acknowledge TRUTH - finally Truth.
I don’t know how it happened, and in reality, I don’t think I really need to know, but throughout my tender years of making sense of the world, I collected some pretty crappy beliefs about myself and my place in the world that left me stunted. Beliefs that kept me in the poor-pitiful-me mode; in the less-than mode; in the stay-invisible-at-all-costs mode. I’ve known this for years, I’ve done lots and lots of inner work to clear some of those beliefs and behaviors. I’ve progressed slowly but surely . . . and the operative word is that I’ve progressed, but keep reading to see what the cards say and how I understood them. . .
Wasn't the Full Moon/Blood Moon/Eclipse stunning last night? I couldn't help but feel the energy of moving into new territory. Like the changing of the guards. What new things are you inviting into your life? What old things are you consciously letting go of that no longer serve your purpose? Did you do any ritual? Did you say any prayers? Did you feel anything different knowing that we will won't see this happen again for almost 30 years?
I love rituals, don’t you? They create the setting for something special to happen - and that something special is YOU. They feel good precisely because they are designed to feel good. We can all use more feel good in our lives, right? Right.
There are monthly rituals (full/new moon) there are yearly rituals (Equinoxes, Solstices, Birthdays, Religious holidays etc.), and these once or twice a year happenings are often easier to put energy into because they usually involve other people, and as Feminine Goddesses, we make time for other people, don’t we?
So what about YOU? Your rituals that is just for YOU.
Here are a few of my favorites - I won’t pretend I do these every day because it’s always a struggle for me to find time for just myself - for myself - by myself. BUT when I do, here are my favorites:
FIRST ALWAYS - IN SPIRIT
Gratitude, Meditation, Oracles and writing.
My waking eyes don’t even open without a moment of gratitude. I consciously put a smile on my face (see my note about consciously smiling at the end of this article), and speak from my heart of the joy of each day. It’s my prayer to the universe to be grateful for the abundance that is bestowed on my life. No matter what else is going on in my world, there is always much to be grateful for and I love starting my day with this feel good habit.
Then I move into my connection with the self through meditation.
I breathe in Self Love Energy, and release limiting beliefs and behaviors as I breathe out.
I usually play Scared Spirit Drums by David & Steve Gordon…..it’s only 5 minutes or so, and I just breathe in the energy of self love before I even step out of bed. I begin each day with this mantra: on the inhale: “I love myself, l love myself” (twice on each inhale) and on the exhale “I release limiting beliefs and behaviors”. 5-7 minutes each day - [This is NOT the "Look at me, aren't I amazing" kind of self-Love, but the deep appreciation and acceptance of all that you are kind of love].This one thing will create miracles in your life.
Of course you know I have Oracle Cards - heaps of them. My current favorites are: Wisdom of the Hidden Realms by Colette Baron-Reid, Energy Oracle Cards by Sandra Anne Taylor, and I also I have a new deck, Wisdom of the Oracle Divination cards by Colette Baron Reid, that I've preordered and should arrive Sept 29th.
I communicate with Spirit through my Oracle cards. Over the years I've learned how to ask questions and how to interpret the answers. They keep me grounded and connected to myself. After years of doing this, I am still completely blown away by how spot-on they are….Whenever I am feeling off or out of sorts, it's because I haven't been having these powerful conversations with Spirit - you know my favorite saying: Spirit is always talking to you...are you listening? When I don't take time to listen, I begin to feel ungrounded.
The last part of my morning “before-I-talk-to-anyone” routine is I try to write down any new thoughts or inspiration that comes up during my mediation or oracle readings. This is when my intuition does it's sorting and clarifying - I have to be careful about this because I get a plethora of ideas ALL. THE. TIME, and not every one needs to be acted on…but every one takes me to a place of possibilities that live in my subconscious every moment of everyday. It’s like connecting the dots, each one leads to the next one, and all dots create a complete picture.
Music is always my go-to for mood adjustment as well as my workout cheerleader. Being old school, I'm an Oldies but Goodies kind of gal, but you pick what gets your juices flowing and your body moving.
My favorite workout is either a walk in the woods or a paddle on the lake. Neither of which are very close to where I live, so they are luxuries….but my daily rituals include 2 must-dos….One is what I call “log time”. I use my yoga log to stretch my contracted chest muscles (from sitting at a computer for hours on end). This helps straighten my spine as well, and I do it about 4 times a day, sometimes for 15 minutes, but usually for only 3-5 minutes.
My other can’t-live-without is my Total Gym (Yes, the same one you see on infomercials). I never thought I would own one because during my devoted gym rat days in my 40s, free weights ruled. But with age and back problems I’ve had to love myself enough to dial it down several notches. I can no longer push myself without injuries that take too long to recover from, so I do baby steps - and you know, a lot of those baby steps put together gets you places. I can feel and see the difference in how I function. Win Win
Altars should be everywhere. this is my favorite altar for my professional oracle readings. It sets the intention to open my channel to spirit on behalf of someone else. This altar lives in my studio: my silver cocoon called Gypsy - you might recognize her as an Airstream - but she is so much more than that - she is my haven, my womb, my very essence. She invites creativity and self love.
I'm pretty spent by the time dinner is over and I am finally dialing down my energy - so it's usually just a quiet, soaking bath for me. My bath is filled with a cup or two Epsom Salts mixed with essential oils and a handful of baking soda, I light candles and just deeply relax into the water. It’s not unheard of for me to sip my favorite glass of whisky to complete the ritual - it's a treat to myself.
NOW I LAY ME DOWN TO SLEEP
My days begin with gratitude and end with gratitude - a simple prayer of thanks as I stretch into warmth of the bed. Always with a smile on my face.
Here’s the thing about smiling I promised you at the beginning:
It’s pretty hard to hang onto any bullshit chatter of our egoic minds; the fears, the coulda, woulda, shouldas, when you are smiling. It is a conscious act to remind myself that it is all good - and sometimes to remember that "this too shall pass".
I would love to hear from you - what are your favorite rituals? What yummy things do you do that are filled with self-love? How do you celebrate YOU?